Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Ya know, in our society, we dont talk about things. I have not talked about these things either. Until now that is. My wife knows, but pretty much no one else what I am about to talk about. When I was in school, I was labeled as gay. I didnt like Sports, I didnt like girls, and I didnt like sports. These are the things that as boys, and men, we are told that we have to like. Its mandatory! And if, as a boy and now man, if you dont like these things, you must be gay. At least that is the stigma that I lived with for about 4 years of my life in High school. And since the word was out that I was gay, I attracted gay guys. I didnt stand up for myself because I was sooo very shy. Even being around girls made me ill. So there was no sticking up for myself. Though Im not sure this would have helped at all. I coped by being a loner. I tried as best I could to be invisible. I could have easily actually become gay. Everyone thought I was. So why not just give in? Well, something inside me told me that I was not. I refused to give in and today, I am married and not gay.