Was I gay?
When I was in school, I was labeled as gay. I did not like girls, I did not like sports and I did not like working on cars. These are the main things that boys and men are supposed to like. If you dont like these things, you must be gay, right?
Wednesday, November 28, 2012
Ya know, in our society, we dont talk about things. I have not talked about these things either. Until now that is. My wife knows, but pretty much no one else what I am about to talk about.
When I was in school, I was labeled as gay. I didnt like Sports, I didnt like girls, and I didnt like sports. These are the things that as boys, and men, we are told that we have to like. Its mandatory!
And if, as a boy and now man, if you dont like these things, you must be gay. At least that is the stigma that I lived with for about 4 years of my life in High school.
And since the word was out that I was gay, I attracted gay guys. I didnt stand up for myself because I was sooo very shy. Even being around girls made me ill.
So there was no sticking up for myself. Though Im not sure this would have helped at all. I coped by being a loner. I tried as best I could to be invisible.
I could have easily actually become gay. Everyone thought I was. So why not just give in?
Well, something inside me told me that I was not. I refused to give in and today, I am married and not gay.
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